The time has come for you to have your fourth birthday. I cannot believe that I blinked my eyes and four years have come and gone so quickly. I love watching you grow. There is not a day that goes by that you don't cease to amaze me. You're so smart and funny. You have a personality larger than I can put into words.
This last year has brought a lot of changes. We lived in our "Ona" house, as you called it, for about 9 or 10 months. Your father and I decided it was then time to finally buy our own home and settle down for a while. It was a long process to find the perfect house for our little family, but we did it! The best part? You have loved it!
You also went to preschool for most of the school year last year (2013-2014). Miss Jeneen was your teacher. She's amazing and you adore her. She has been so integral in your growing and learning. I have seen your mind comprehend things I had no idea a 3 year old could. It has been so gratifying for me to watch as you learn and take in the world around you.
Elliot has become your best friend. I'm so glad you play with him and that most of the time you are a great big sister. Only on occasion do we find you fighting with him, and by on occasion, I mean most of the time! Honestly though, you are an amazing big sis to him. We are so grateful that God gave us the opportunity to raise you two together.
Scarlet, there are so many things I want to tell you about the day you were born. It was one of the most magical and surreal days of my life. I felt like I had waited a lifetime for that moment of when I would get to see your birth. Unfortunately your birth was slightly traumatic for all of us involved. I had to have a C-section because Kingston, your twin, was not doing very well and my body had given up the fight to stay pregnant with you two. Kingston came out first and was really tiny. I was so scared for him and the life, or lack of life, he would have. You came out next, just two minutes later. You seemed so much bigger than him. You were so beautiful!
After you were born, you were taken to the NICU where the doctors and nurses could take care of you. You were having a hard time breathing on your own, so they had to help you. It was heartbreaking for me to see what you had to go through, but I knew it was what was best. They took great care of you.
While you were in the NICU, I had the opportunity to spend some time with Kingston. It was almost as if time slowed, and for 73 minutes I got to marvel in the beauty of a perfect little soul. He was amazing, Scarlet. Daddy gave him a blessing with Papa and then I got to hold him next to my heart until his little body gave up its fight and his spirit slipped into the arms of Jesus.
I remember those moments so vividly. They replay in my mind often. The feeling of having heaven in my hospital room was like nothing I have ever experienced in this life. The joy and peace I felt was indescribable. I could feel the angels among us as they welcomed Kingston back into their presence. I knew a few of the spirits who were there among them. I felt who they were. It was almost as if they spoke to me.
I want to tell you the stories of the last moments of Kingston's life, but I feel as though they are too sacred for me to write down, so I will tell them to you when you are older and can comprehend them a little better. Just know that the day you were born was a day I will never forget! It was one of the best, most bittersweet days of my life.
Scarlie, you have given me four of the most amazing years I could have asked for. I love being your mom. I'm beyond blessed that you are in my life. You're my little best friend, my beautiful daughter, and Kingston's twin. I don't want you to ever forget who you are. Most importantly, you are a daughter of our Heavenly Father. Always remember that He is watching over you. He knows your struggles and trials. He also knows your joys. Also always remember that you have the most beautiful guardian angel a girl could ask for. You have Kingston watching over you too. I can only imagine the bonds that you two formed. I wish so much I could see you two together, but it was just not meant to be in this life.
Happy birthday beautiful girl! I'm so excited to keep watching you grow.
Love you always and forever,
Mom
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